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mary elizabeth
28 May 2011 @ 11:33 am

it's been a while.

and today might not be the best day to start something.. to progress with something.  today i am a little removed from the world, a little preoccupied with the fact that yesterday, i lost my grandfather.  he was a good man, quite frankly the best person that i've ever met; he taught me how to live and he taught me how to die.  when he learned that he had two types of terminal cancer, he celebrated his life and he spent time with people that meant most to him; he didn't feel sorry for himself. 

so anyways, i need to run a full marathon.  it was originally under the suggestion of my boyfriend, that i could do it; i guess it was the first time that i (was actively listening and) heard someone say this.  i thought about it, i weighed the options, i decided against it.  and such as running draws it's perfect parallel to life, i realized that i need to push myself out of the safe state of life in which i reside; i want to be more than this, even though this is pretty fantastic.

my first race, a testament that i would always be better; i secured a foundation on which i could rely upon; i would never hit the bottom again.  the second race a lesson in selflessness, an experiment gone right that i could open up, that i should open up, that in face of trial it's okay to lean on others.  now my third attempt, my best attempt...  as of now i see it as proof that i can do anything. 

today i'm starting training for the marathon, for my life.  and this won't be easy or simple and i'm sure when all is said and done, i'll have learned things that i can't comprehend at the moment.  and i think respecting the process is a tremendous way to start.
 

my entries will be more frequent as i like to document these types of things.


 
 
mary elizabeth
21 April 2011 @ 10:14 pm

i have had too many days, as of late, that have felt like junk.  i have cried much too much and i'm tired of it.  i have been worried over this and that and most things in between.  i have been tired, frustrated, and just plain sad. 

i'm done with that.

it's time to enjoy my life.


 
 
mary elizabeth
13 April 2011 @ 08:49 am

there is so much that i wish that i could say.  but people shouldn't say those sorts of things, at least not in a direct manner.  i am ridiculously frustrated with some things and even more ridiculously happy with other things; i quite enjoy the happiness. 


 
 
mary elizabeth
21 March 2011 @ 05:59 am
100 Things You Might Not Know About Me...

1. ONE OF YOUR SCARS, HOW DID YOU GET IT?
i have a chicken pox scar on my eyelid

2. WHAT IS ON THE WALLS IN YOUR ROOM?
a mardi gras mask

3. DO YOU SNORE, GRIND YOUR TEETH, OR TALK IN YOUR SLEEP?
i grind my teeth

4. WHAT TYPE OF MUSIC DO YOU LISTEN TO?
mainly indie, country, and pop, sometimes alternative, rap, and r&b

5. DO YOU KNOW WHAT TIME YOU WERE BORN?
5:05p

6. WHAT DO YOU WANT MORE THAN ANYTHING RIGHT NOW?
to live without anxiety

7. WHAT DO YOU MISS?
my dog

8. WHAT IS YOUR MOST PRIZED POSSESSION(S)?
college degree

9. HOW TALL ARE YOU?
5'6" with shoes

10. DO YOU GET CLAUSTROPHOBIC
rarely

11. DO YOU GET SCARED IN THE DARK?
not usually

12. THE LAST PERSON TO MAKE YOU CRY?
family

14. WHAT KIND OF HAIR/EYE COLOR DO YOU LIKE ON THE OPPOSITE SEX?
dark brown hair

15. WHERE CAN YOU SEE YOURSELF BEING PROPOSED TO AT?
the question is, where can't i see myself being proposed to at...

16. COFFEE OR ENERGY DRINK?
espresso please

17. FAVORITE PIZZA TOPPING?
mushrooms AND pineapples

18. IF YOU COULD EAT ANYTHING RIGHT NOW, WHAT WOULD IT BE?
grilled cheese and soup

19. FAVORITE COLOR OF ALL TIME?
green

20. HAVE YOU EVER EATEN A GOLDFISH?
they're okay

21. WHAT WAS THE FIRST MEANINGFUL GIFT YOU'VE EVER RECEIVED?
my life

22. DO YOU HAVE A CRUSH?
he's the love of my life :)

23. ARE YOU DOUBLE JOINTED?
no

24. FAVORITE CLOTHING BRAND?
ann taylor, a.n.a., new york & co

25. WHO IS YOUR FAV FEMALE/MALE CELEBRITY?
natalie portman / leonardo dicaprio

26. DO YOU HAVE A PET RIGHT NOW?
no

27. WHAT KIND IS IT?
n/a (but i wish i had a puppy!)

28. WOULD YOU FALL IN LOVE KNOWING THAT THE PERSON IS LEAVING?
of course, things that are meant to be will work out

30. SAY A NUMBER FROM ONE TO A HUNDRED:
11

31. BLONDES OR BRUNETTES?
brunettes

32. FAVORITE QUOTE?
"i will comfort you."

33. FAVORITE PLACE?
vacation

34. HAVE YOU BEEN OUT OF THE USA?
no

35. YOUR WEAKNESSES?
my boyfriend, tiramisu, espresso, outlet malls, naps, dairy queen

36. MET ANYONE FAMOUS?
kelly from saved by the bell

37. FIRST JOB?
baby sitting

38. EVER DONE A PRANK CALL?
i've been summoned to the campus police dept because of them

39. DO YOU THINK EVERYONE OUT THERE HAS A SOULMATE?
yes

40. WHAT WERE YOU DOING BEFORE YOU FILLED THIS OUT?
reading e-mail

41. HAVE YOU EVER HAD SURGERY?
just wisdom teeth

42. WHAT DO YOU GET COMPLIMENTED ABOUT MOST?
how young i look

43. HAVE YOU EVER HAD BRACES?
no

44. WHAT DO YOU WANT FOR YOUR BIRTHDAY?
LOL  jewelry

45. HOW MANY KIDS DO YOU WANT AND THEIR NAMES?
one, if it's a boy : henry james and a girl : annabella elizabeth
 
46. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE?
yes

47. WHAT IS THE BIGGEST TURN OFF OF THE OPPOSITE SEX?
patronizing me and wasting my time

48. WHAT IS ONE THING YOU LIKED ABOUT HIGH SCHOOL?
for the most part i liked all of hs, i LOVED my friends

49. WHAT KIND OF SHAMPOO DO YOU USE?
suave professionals

50. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING?
yup

51. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LUNCH MEAT?
turkey

52. ANY BAD HABITS?
over analyzing things

53. ARE YOU A JEALOUS PERSON?
not usually

54. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON, WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU?
sure

55. DO YOU AGREE WITH FRIENDS WITH BENEFITS?
no

56. DO LOOKS MATTER?
when it comes to relationships, absolutely

57. HOW DO YOU RELEASE ANGER?
i don't really get "angry" anymore... when i'm frustrated with things, i talk to friends or go running

58. WHO WAS YOUR FIRST BEST FRIEND?
maria

59. WHAT'S YOUR MAIN GOAL IN LIFE?
to be happy

60. WHAT WAS YOUR FAVORITE TOY AS A CHILD?
i loved my roller skates

61. HOW MANY NUMBERS ARE IN YOUR CELL PHONE?
like people's phone numbers?  i don't know and i don't have them all... my cell phone is just over a week old; the old one broke and when it died, so did my contact list

62.WERE YOU A FAN OF BARNEY AS A LITTLE KID?
no

63. Do you use sarcasm?
never!

64. MASHED POTATOES OR MACARONI AND CHEESE?
cold mashed potatoes

65. WHAT DO YOU LOOK FOR IN A GUY/GIRL?
a guy that is attractive, witty, has a stable job, values education, listens to excellent music, is romantic, thoughtful, and puts others before himself, loves his family, has good friends, is patient, understanding, and isn't afraid to stick up to me, affectionate, and honest

66. WHAT ARE YOUR NICKNAMES?
sweetheart :)

67. FAVORITE SUPER POWER?
breathe under water

68. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE TV SHOW?
it's always sunny

69.WHAT'S THE BEST WAY TO DEAL WITH YOUR ENEMIES?
i don't really have "enemies"; i avoid people i don't care for

70. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE ICE CREAM FLAVOR?
mint chocolate chip

71. DO YOU HAVE ALL YOUR FINGERS AND TOES?
yes

72. DO YOU HAVE A COMPUTER IN YOUR ROOM?
in my living room

73. PLANS FOR TONIGHT?
dinner with my boo

74. WHERE DO YOU WANT TO LIVE WHEN YOU ARE OLDER?
who knows where life will take me...

75. DO YOU WANT EVERYONE TO ANSWER THESE QUESTIONS?
uh, no

76. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO?
coldplay

77. LAST THING YOU DRANK?
dr pepper

78. LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE?
my mom

79. THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE IN THE OPPOSITE SEX
face

80. WHAT DO YOU LIKE TO DO IN YOUR SPARE TIME?
spend time with my amazing boyfriend, travel, work out, shop, hang out with friends... work...

81. FAVORITE THING TO HATE?
facebook

82. FAVORITE SEASON OF THE YEAR
summer!

83. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE TYPE OF CANDY?
pb twix

84. HAVE YOU EVER REALLY AND TRULY HAD A BEST FRIEND?
of course

85. WHAT IS YOUR HAIR COLOR?
brown

86. EYE COLOR?
greenish

87. SHOE SIZE?
10

88. FAVORITE FAST FOOD PLACE?
i do enjoy chic filet at the moment

89. FAVORITE RESTAURANT?
monte cellos, in pittsburgh

90. DO YOU LIKE SUSHI?
i love the california roll

91. WHO WERE YOUR GOOD FRIENDS IN HIGH SCHOOL?
jenay, aaron, vita, mj, dave, kelley, jess, julie, lisa

92. FAVORITE DAY OF THE YEAR?
11.22 - my birthday!!!

93. PLAY ANY MUSICAL INSTRUMENTS?
my ipod. i took guitar lessons...

94. REPUBLICAN OR DEMOCRAT?
no thanks

95. KISSES OR HUGS?
depends on who they're from

96. RELATIONSHIPS OR ONE NIGHT STANDS?
relationships

97. WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU BOUGHT?
a snack

98. WOULD YOU EVER BE A HOUSEWIFE?
it'd be super awesome if i could work part time and be a part time stay at home person

99. WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING?
n/a

100. DESCRIBE YOUR LOVE LIFE.
i have found my heart's desire :)

 
 
mary elizabeth
20 March 2011 @ 11:49 am
ugh  
in the overall of things, i would be quite content to lay on a sidewalk and wait for the world to pass me by.
 
 
 
mary elizabeth
31 January 2011 @ 05:39 am
i just enjoyed a wonderful piece of "smores bark" that was mistakenly sold to me for a penny; it made it that much more delicious.  i should probably remark on far more important things or ramble on about my life and the progress that i feel it's making... but i just don't feel like it.  everything is going relatively well.
 
 
mary elizabeth
21 January 2011 @ 10:42 pm
looking forward to having a laptop!
 
 
mary elizabeth
19 January 2011 @ 05:06 am
like a recovered addict, i'm convinced that it would be okay in small doses, that i am capable of handling something like that... the truth is that i should just avoid things like that all together.

i went running last night with the love of my life, he being faster and his efforts, while cold, seemed effortless.  i convinced myself that my slow pace was acceptable and reminded myself that if i ran for speed, i should have stopped long ago.  i have to learn that there really is no need to always bring my competitive spirit along.

speaking of the love of my life, all is well.  i wake in the morning thankful.
 
 
mary elizabeth
15 January 2011 @ 10:25 am
"Create the perfect way for you by accepting what is in front of you and not fearing it should be something else."


 
 
mary elizabeth
03 January 2011 @ 05:28 am

i'm afraid i have many random thoughts circling in my mind.
 

colorado was amazing.  i couldn't have dreamed up a better trip.  we had beautiful weather which allowed us to do all kinds of outdoorsy things; prior to the trip i had never felt a pull to travel, during i came to realize how wonderful it really is to be in a place that's geographically different from what you're accustomed to.  i want to visit alaska.

having goals scares me.  i'm trying to convince myself that 2011 should be the year that i go for what i want (not necessarily a trip to alaska just yet) and to stop being afraid of it.

i'm in love, totally, completely, undoubtedly in love and it's the best.

it's time for me to stop being so disappointed in such disappointing people (granted, thankfully, there are only a few).

i must remember that life is short and i should LIVE.  i've lost four family members in under a years time.

i would really like to come up with some sort of skeleton of a plan for my life and career.  instead of limitless i feel too unattached.  maybe that's a mixed blessing.